the end...??

Feel totaly lost
like wish i could cry
fuck.
life is so pointless.
why am i like this
?
hate my lyfe
it hurt my heart
.
i think im too scared to enjoi myself
i love myself. idont want to lie anymore.
you know when the earth feels like it just dumped all its manure on you?
that's where i think i'll be in a few minutes time.
tryin to find something that makes sense
guess nothing does
who knows>
do you believe in God?
i do, buit then i dont
sortof embarassed to admit that i want to.
i feel religion is a strong support pillar for life.
if youy didn t have religion, wghat is there real to hope for?
it's sad existence.
when dudes are down and worried, who do you look to?
but i dont like the religions where you have to do shit that you dont want to. i mean the first time is a new exp but then its like shoveling turd down your throat.
want a religion that makes sense.
one that actualy talks to me, and gives me advice on how to live lyfe.
cuz seriously life isd fuckin hard.
whatever we seem to do doesnt seem to matter.
what matters in the end anyway?
Luv?
caring for your loved ones?
bold things?
no i dont think so.
forgive me for being so brass
but i fuckin blieve
that i neeedd to cry////
after i cry, dont realy care what i was crying bout anymore.
i rmember the dane cook take.
i just keep crying in circles.
seems sortof forced.
wana hear something funny?
isometimes yawn when
i forcecry.
is sadness a mind thing?
are we taught to be sad?
wish i could unlearn.

here's what i have to say to everthing.

hi
hey
whatsup
fuckin around on fb you?
chuillen
you wana do something tonight?
like what
like walk and smoke and chill.
cant dude have a paper to write
c'monnnnn
sorry man
*sign off*
sad.
wish i had a purpose in life.
where are my pills??